Well it has been nearly two weeks since our big scare, that was intense and frightening. But things seem to have settled down and everything is going along very well. It is pretty awful when you are going from hour to hour hoping and praying your little bump is going to be ok.

But we had to have a change of thoughts about all this, we were so stressed and wondering why this has to happen to us. Why cant things just go right and be easy. Then we realised just how lucky we are, we are pregnant, it has worked for us. Plenty of people are not as lucky as we have been. It is a natural thought process when something horrific happens but now we are just pleased to be pregnant. We want to enjoy the pregnancy not be terrified of it just because of past events. We were analyzing every pain, tweak, feeling and twinge based on things that happened to us before. But we have never had IVF before we don’t know what to expect and cant base things from 8 years ago against anything that happens now.

We are just in a positive place right now, so grateful and happy to have been sent down this path. It seemed cruel when it looked like our baby had gone and we found it difficult to understand that we had been lucky to even get pregnant. But now we can see just how lucky we are and we are going to enjoy every last minute of the journey to our little baby making it into the big wide world.

It is also true that you never stop worrying, even after they are born we have a 9 year old and 13 year old and we worry about them each and every single day. But worrying doesn’t change anything in fact it probably makes it worse Our two boys are as tough and smart as they come, we should worry about ourselves more than them

I guess that is what been a parent or prospective parent is all about. Desperately wanting to keep our babies safe and well

Anyway I have decided that these blog posts need to be more positive and thoughtful as well as factual Although I do hope that sometime in the future when someone is going through what we did they might stumble on our blog and see that not all is lost even during a big heavy bleed.

Its been a mad week at work as well, I am getting about all over the UK. On the plus side I hope to get a new car over the next few days, to many miles on my truck now. Although it is a brilliant truck and I will miss it probably spend more time in it than at home

Liz is resting up ready to go back to work on Monday after her hospital appointment, just a midwife check up. She will be taking it easy though, well I hope!

I have changed the blog around a little bit, trying to get twitter working with it a bit better. All good fun.

To all those who are just going through IVF/Pregnancy good luck to you all. To those who had bad news on this cycle stay positive and don’t give up on your dreams.

Max